Awareness of Awareness
I have long struggled with sustaining an awareness in the last few months. What did I struggle sustaining actually? Am I aware of what awareness is? If awareness was so clear, integral, and vital to me, wouldn’t it have been possible nourish and maintain it? I will venture to articulate what I am aware of awareness.
Awareness is the ability to notice and comprehend different layers of life. The immediately available layer is the layer of physical surface - the color, shape, smell, physics of things. The second layer is the physical or biological responses that take place through the interaction in the first layer. Pleasure that we get from eating, and touching are here. Then, there is the layer of models that describe the seen, including economic, social and historical realities. We dare not to cross this layer. Beyond this point, awareness becomes metaphysical. It appeals to meanings, consciousness and feelings. It cultivates in nonlinear paths and directions.
It is as if, after growing through the soil, the seed is reaching the fresh air for the first time. The seed cannot rationalize beyond the soil. The air, the world of the unseen, the sun and the air is all beyond comprehension. They can only be sensed. The sensations mature as the seed matures into a tree.
Awareness is the seed, the root, the plant, and the fruit. We nourish it layer by layer, breath after breath,a something fresh and unimaginable at everystepr.
Similarly, the word awareness has many layers, and I can only grasp them as I embrace the world of the unseen. This is the journey of finding awareness by gaining awareness. Awareness is the process of self-actualization.